The Venus in Furs

I just recently watched Velvet Goldmine, a film by Todd Haynes. I really wasn't expecting anything going into it, but damn was I surprised.

I have to admit, before I say anything else, that there was so much wrong with the movie. It just wasn't made very well. But, there was too much right with it for me no to love it.

In short, David Bowie and Iggy Pop references, Oscar Wilde, Glam!, glitter, HOT HOT GORGEOUS cast, phenomenal wardrobe, spectacular makeup, and to top it all off- one of the best soundtracks I've ever heard.

The film makes me want to wear sparkly dresses, feather boas, neon platforms, and makes me want to sprinkle glitter on everything.

I really wish Brian Slade was a real artist. The few original songs in the movie are nothing short of brilliant. Jonathan Rhys-Meyers' voice was surprisingly amazing and refreshing.

I'm basically obsessed with it now, and have watched it 3 times in the past 5 days. On top of that, I've ordered the physical soundtrack even though I'm able to just download it, which I have done.

Oh, and Brian Slade, although a fictional character, is my new husband- Check That Juliet!

Can't Stop, Won't Stop

So, I've decided that I want to meet these people:

1. William Beckett- I've already met him, but I'd like to have a longer conversation with him.

2. The Butcher- Same as Bill

3. The Siska Brothers- Adam=same as Bill. But, jason seems awesome, I don't know.

4. John O'Callaghan- I've heard nothing but nice things, and he's beautiful.

5. Alex Suarez- Again, I've heard nothing but nice things, and he seems super awesome.

6. Christofer Drew- He's so cute! End of story.

7. Nathaniel Motte- I've met him numerous times, but I'd like to meet him again. (I'll be seeing him atleast twice within the next 6 months, hopefully more)

8. Kevin Smith- The man is a genius.

9. David Blaise- I don't even listen to This Providence, but he's too cute for words.

Eh, that's all I can think of for now.

For everyone's viewing pleasure, photos:

Bill Beckett:

The Butcher

John Ohhh:

Nathaniel Motte:

Are we dancers?

So, the upcoming week is the last, and this semester is done. I'm excited, happy, frightened, and nervous. Finals are scary, and I really would rather not take them. I have so much to do:

1. Read Chapters 7-9 in my US Book- check.


2. Re-read my entire AP Environmental Book.- check


3. Write my 'Smoke Signals' analysis- check.


4. Write my reflection


5. Do a 9 page packet for history


6. Do 70 problems for math.


7. Plan a party- check.
   
8. Do 6 pages of Spanish -check.
9. Practive Test for AP Lang
10. Practice Test for APES

No, I'm not kidding- I really have to do all this. I should probably get to it.

To Sisky, From Santa: Awesome!

I cannot wait until Winter break. It's almost here. 11 days of school left, 4 of which are minimum days.

Twitter is awesome, I can officially say that I love it.

Erm, I really love cream soda, and I love to wear scarfs.

I also love the new TAI... song, Winter Passing, and you should buy it from iTunes if you haven't already.

This post really has no point, I just haven;t posted in a while and wanted to.

Amanda's

Song of the day: Neutral Milk Hotel- King of Carrot Flowers

Name drop of the day: Santa

I'm in Love with my own sins.

This video is too hilarious, and I highly recommend watching it if you haven't already. It's genius.

Shake it, shake it like you bouts to get paid!

So, here it is: Winter Passing. What a freaking brilliant song. I seriously can't wait until TAI... tour again. It's going to be too wonderful. I can't wait to hear it recorded as Bill wants it, it's going to be genius- as what he writes always is.

My Mondayeyes bracelet is phenomenal and inspires me to write whenever I look at it. It might be my favorite thing that I wear. Eh, maybe not. I do love my Neon Body Style shirt.

Erm, just for fun:

I'd have to agree with Bill on this one, Butcher deserves a serious award- he is extremely talented, and I respect him for just that.

Oh, and I really want to win the newest SLH contest. I never win anything and I'm pretty sure the prize is Butcher artwork- which I really want.



Amanda's:
Song of the Day: The Academy Is...- Winter Passing
Name Drop of the Day: Patrick Bateman (I've been a little obsessed with American Psycho lately, don't judge)

Remember Maine?

So, I'm in love....with my Mondayeyes bracelet. It is too amazing.

I am also in love with TAI...'s new song, "Winter Passing." I mean, what a brilliant piece of work it is:

Its winter again, a white washed and frozen sky…I came to the door, eyes maladjusted from the light,but your voice rang clear.You said, “For all I thought I’d ever need,its hard to face the holidays without.”Well I’ve left my last message on your machineIts hard to face the holidays when you’re looking for the words to say.So you’ve found a friend. You spend all your cold nights with him,but if i was there, then I’d wonder why you still wear my jacket closedwith traces of my scent.I’d say, “For all I thought I’d ever need,its hard to face the holidays without.”Well I’ve left my last message on your machineIts hard to face the holidays when you’re looking for the words to say.So stay with me here. Nose to nose, cold enough to see as our breath slowly escapes and exchanges from my lungs to yours, from your mouth to mine.For all I thought I’d ever need,its hard to face the holidays without.Well I’ve left my last message on your machineit’s hard to face the holidays when you’re looking for the words to say.When you’re looking for the words to say.

Also, I think I might have a serious crush on Peter Pan...yeah.

Korova Milk Bar

So, I'm becoming impatient for my Mondayeyes bracelet.

I really want it.

I can't wait to see TAI... again, who knows when that will be, but it gives me something to look forward to.

But, they deserve a break, hopefully they will resume touring early next year.

I don't know- I think this post is completely pointless.

I do not want to go to school today, I'm tired and feel like crap.

I have a feeling today is going to really blow.

But, eh- let's be positive!

Amanda's:

Name Drop of the Day: Alex DeLarge

Song of the Day: Ludwig Van himself- 9th Symphony

You and Me and the Moon

So, I officially have a new favorite band to listen to: This Is Ivy League.

I'd heard of them numerous times, being that I love Cobra Starship, and TIIL is Ryland and Suarez.

But, they are so much better than Cobra. Definitely one of the better indie bands around. So, I provided a video.

"London Bridges"

Comments, questions, concerns?

PS: just ordered my Mondayeyes bracelet, Check that Juliet! :)

Crunchy Friends in a liquid broth!

So, The Mighty Boosh is the greatest show EVER. I've been watching it for a while, but stopped and now I've started again.

If you haven't seen it- go, now. It's brilliant.

Back to the future much?

So, I've just uncovered something truly magical- William Beckett's blog from when he was like 18-19. He has developed so much as a writer, and definitely as a person as well. It's almost funny to see the difference. There's some crazy stuff that gives me some crazy ideas.

Needless to say, I can't read the entirety of each blog- but the parts I am able to view are more than sufficient.

My day has officially been made...no, my week. Thanks Beckett.

Tomorrow are taste tests and Trevor's BBQ.

Can anyone guess what I'm going to be for Halloween?

But why must we eat Kit-kats? "Because they taste like something else that is good"

AP Lang test was today- not fun in any way.

But, the highlight of my day was that I was able to use the line "melancholy and only of the infinite most sadness" in my essay. Which is you didn't get it already was an allude to Smashing Pumpkins.

I was happy, I got my descriptive essay back and got an alright grade, not as good as I would have hoped. But, the positive thing is that Mrs. Douglas said I have a wonderful writing style and I would have gotten a higher grade if I were to have elaborated more. All I can say is damn.

I have a bag of miscellaneous candy by my bed, I'm tempted to eat it- so I will.

Any ideas on what I should write my next piece on?

Amanda's:

Name drop of the day: Walt Disney

Song of the day: Aladdin- One Jump Ahead

Tell you're boyfriend, if he says he got beef- that i'm a vegetarian and I ain't fuc**ng scared of him!!

I don't know why, but I feel this mad urge to express my undying love and respect for 3OH!3.

They may put on the whole "I'm a stupid gangsta and like girls boobs" persona. But, really Nat (I haven't really spoken to Sean), is the sweetest, most sincere, intelligent person I have ever spoken to.

He is a truly amazing artist and I am genuinely happy to have heard their music, and been able to talk to him. So, Nat- seriously thanks. I'm going to try to make it to the Taking Back Sunday show that you are playing, but it's not looking to good.

Anyway, I love 3OH!3, and I love can't wait for both:

1) November 9th- Disneyland, I haven't gone in a few months and I'm going to go insane.

2) December 27th- First MFH show in a seriously long time. MFH, Laundromat Robbery- it couldn't get better than that unless Bill Beckett or Nat showed up.

TTFN!

Amanda's:

Name Drop of the Day: Nathaniel Motte

Song of the Day: 3OH!3- Colorado Sunrise

Candy and Horror Movies!?!

So, Halloween is going to be epic.

I'm going trick or treating- yes, I am 16, thank you very much.

Then, Doris and I are going to have a horror movie marathon. I think it's going to go down like this:

The Exorcist

The Shining

Rosemary's Baby

Candyman

Then we may add some more. I don't know. I'll probably fall asleep.

Trevor's BBQ this weekend is going to be massive. Like 100 people there atleast, it makes me hungry just to think of it. There is going to be some tasty eats, and delicious treats- wow, I am officially lame.

So, 'till later today, tomorrow, or sometime after that.

Santi!

~Your very own Bedtime. Story.

PS: Parent shadow day is tomorrow, so I'll probably have funny stories.

Amanda's:

Name Drop of the day: Lil John

Song of the day: Baby I Got Your Money- Say Anything Cover

This is what I live for.

So, finally a decent looking film. It looks completely epic and I am way too excited.

Click here to view the trailer. Watch it and tell me it's not going to be amazing.

Haven't Done this is a while, but...

Amanda's:

Name drop of the day: Nathan Wrann

Song of the Day: The Academy Is...- Down and Out

the star streaked sky.

I've always wished I could draw, I think it's the most amazing thing. But, I'm really impatient and get ridiculously frustrated way too easy. So, I've just never been able to actually apply myself. But, I found this instructionao drawing website written by some art teacher and it is really informative, so I'm actually goijng to take the time to practice and get better. I'm really excited.

Yep. Oh, and I'm way more into short stories, or descriptive writing. But, I wanted to try my hand at poetry, well good poetry, and the finished product makes me extremely happy.


As I looked into the star streaked sky
I felt a tiny boy, by my side.
Small and tender, no regrets.
He forced me to remember, never fret.
The life he made was full of joy.
Memories of candy and toys.

A dainty girl arrived by my side and told me
“Amanda, don’t you cry”
Her dainty hands wrapped around mine and reminded me
I don’t have time.
This generation is filled with fear.
That they may not last another year.

Feat is the trigger for our lives.
It is our hopes, it is our cries.
Fear is what makes grown men tear
And little girls, grasp at their pretty hair

One days soon we’ll find each other and know that
Some day or another, fear will be a memory
Of days that were never meant to be.

Bill and Trav's Bogus Journey

I don't know why I always have to make ridiculous faces in pictures. I think it may be because I'm trying to decide what face to make and I always get stuck in between.

So, yesterday was TAI... and it went down like this:

Got to HOB at about 3:00 and got in the meet and greet line. First, we had to do this meet and greet thing where they all sat at a table and signed crap (no pictures=lame), then if we had time we could mingle.

So, Bill was first and our conversation was as follows:

Bill "Hey how have you been?"

Me: "Fine thanks, and you?"

Bill: "Good , so are you excited for the show?"
Me:"Yeah, I'm super excited"

Bill : "Cool, well thank you for coming"
Me: "OF course, so how's your throat?"

Bill: "It's good, I feel way better, I slept for like 11 hours"

Me: "Well, that's good- see you later"

Bill: "Enjoy the show"

Then I talked to Carden, Chizzy (Who gave this explanation of how he was drawing an arrow next to the date so I wouldn't forget), Butcher, and Sisky. They all asked how I was and is I was excited and they were all super nice.

Then, we got to do the mingle thing. So, I didn't want to be rude, so I just stood there and Bill came right over to where I was standing, of course a mob formed around him and whatever. So, I patiently waited and every time I tried to ask him anything, some one would interrupt. So, I moved back a little and then to the side and he did the same. Whatever. So, for 10 minutes I waited for Bill and then he looked at me, eye contact and all and as I was about to ask for a a picture, someone cut me off again. I was pissed. I mean, he couldn't have stood up for me or something? I understand that he gets attacked on a daily basis and people are ridiculous, but come on!

So, I finally got a picture and I was the only one the entire night that he bent down and smiled for. That was cool. Then I gave him the thing I wrote and was like "I wrote this for you, it's not much, but it's from the heart" He smiled and expressed his appreciation. Right. He probably isn't even going to read it, well, I can hope, but eh.

Oh, and some girl gave Bill a necklace and I saw him carrying it. Then, later she said that she found it on the floor. Lame.

Then I got a picture with Butcher whom I told had a spectacular beard. Then Sisky who said he liked my shirt, which I knew he would. Then we got in line to go in for Early Entry and what not.

Hey Monday was pretty cool. Carolina Liar was whack amazing. So good.

Then We The Kings didn't really disappoint either. They were actually pretty good.

TAI... was amazing, as expected. But, during Automatic Eyes (Acoustic), some girl just kept yelling stupid crap like "Bill you're so beautiful" "Bill I love you" and Bill looked really disappointed, like 'Why can't I just sing a song from my heart with out getting yelled at. I was pissed again. Poor Bill.

Oh, and after the show I wanted a set list, so I was waiting, and I was looking around somewhere and all of a sudden I feel something hit me in the face and drop to my shoulder, then the ground. I look and it was a pick and no one else saw, so I got it. Yay!!

So, everyone was nice and Bill was a little disconnected, as expected, but whatever.

Ralph Waldo Emerson/Why We Should Pay Attention In School

Yeah, "Self-Reliance" is basically brilliant! Read it, now!

"There is a time in every man's education when he arrives at the conviction that envy is ignorance; that imitation is suicide"

"To be great is to be misunderstood"

So, Bill Beckett is basically amazing, check it:

The William Beckett Blog.

Reading his blog makes me happy to the most extreme extent.

Oh, and I've included this scan from some guy's blog (credit to that guy) and I basically thought it was the most hilarious, if not the most inappropriate piece of school work EVER. You'll probably have to save it and zoom, because I can't get it any bigger than it is. But, trust me, it's worth it.

This Is Halloween.

So, it's Halloween soon, and in the spirit I decided to post some of the greatest TAI Halloween shots of all time. I'm not a fan girl, I swear.

1. HEY SISKY! IT'S YOUR HEAD!! Not Halloween, I realize, but, it's a bunch of funny heads, all belonging to Adam T. Siska. Exhibit B: Group Halloween shot=priceless. I mean, Butcher the 8 roll mummy, Esmerelda the dead tranny hooker, bill...just bill as a skeleton, Dr. Fear=the scariest of all doctors/clowns ever, and MGC's first Halloween. For sure.
3. Adam T. Siska as Esmerelda, the dead tranny hooker. I had this as the wallpaper on my phone for the longest time. Needless to say, people had nightmares...not me though. Well, just the one. No, kidding.

Neon Body Style

We stealin' shit

Even if it from our friends

We the pimps.

Do what it takes to make ends.

Like scented candles and beds.

Cause Neon Body Style always wins.

Alright.

Don't get heartburn from that chile con carne!

So, erm...this is a little story...
Yeah.

So, me=standing and who else but Nathaniel freaking Motte walks up to me and asks me if I want to take a picture with him. I gladly say yes, obviously. Then we had a conversation and it went down like this:

Nat: "Hey, what's up? How've you been?"
Me: "Good, thanks. You guys were seriously amazing, as usual"
Nat: "Wow, thanks so much, so I saw you getting a little crushed in the pit, are you alright?"
Me: "Yeah, I'm fine, just a little sweaty"
Nat: "Haha, sweaty"
Me: "Haha, yeah. So, when do you think you're going to be coming back to Southern California"
Nat: *gives , literally, a five minute long explanation telling me all the deepest and darkest tour secrets for the upcoming few months"
Me: "Oh, cool...really...oh" *Starts to walk away*
Nat: "Well, it was really cool talking to you, see you later"



So yeah, it's official. I am marrying Nathaniel Motte. Well, maybe not, but erm, figuratively, or yeah, I'm done.

And As The Bright Light Came Nearer, Her Vision Became So Much Clearer.

She pulled her tattered bag close to her growling stomach. She attempted to hurry along, but was stopped by the thick sea of students. She stood there uncomfortably, pigeon-toed and feeling as awkward as she ever had. The potent scent of youth undulated from every crevice of the cold concrete that she had grown to know as home. She grimaced at the disgusting display of life that was parading about, oblivious to the irrelevance of their existence. The blistering heat of the Southern California sun was the only reminder that she was alive, and she was late for class. So, she made her way to the splintered wood, wrapping her lanky fingers around it and getting her soft, delicate skin scratched. She sat down, in the uncomfortable, dilapidated chair. She was ready for the pointless, uninformative babbling called a lecture. She was ready to nap, accepting her own over-analytical, self-conscious, awkward self. She was ready to be alive, to live.

The Harsh Light of Day.

So, I started posting on Mondayeyes (thank you, Mr. Beckett) and I just thought I'd post the same things in both places. So, here's my first one. I actually really liked how it came out.

As she strained to open her eyes, stained with worry and aged by her countless doubts, she realizes the only time she feels whole is in this second, the second when she barely wakes up. The second where no one is there to judge or belittle her ideals, beliefs, and ideas. But, the sizzling heat of the newly risen sun burst through her lightly tinted bedroom window, gracing her with the horrendous thought of reality. She had to become what she always hated and hate what she always wanted to be.

The Crow:Wicked Prayer, More like wicked bad...

So, I've just started watching this piece of crap, you know Edward Furlong, David Boreanaz- what could be better. Well, a lot of things I guess, but at the time it sounded entertaining.

But, let me tell you. DO NOT, i repeat, do not watch this horrendous movie.

I mean, dog crap would be better suited to act than Tara Reid.

The acting is just horrible, and all I can see is Angel, but in the sun. It's weird and he is a horrible actor. Well, I like him, really REALLY like him as Angel, but other than that he just fails. Whatever.

Whoah. Furlong's heart was just ripped out of his chest. This movie is officially ridiculous.

Post-Blog addition: I would actually like to correct myself, David Boreanaz is also spectacular as Seeley Booth...in Bones. But, other than that- no thanks.

PS: I still want a life size Angel.

Ah the shame that youth is wasted on the young.

My essay that's due Wednesday is officially awesome, finally. I'm a descriptive writer, not an analytical writer, so this is my style and I'm so happy with how it turned out.

Anyway, I love Buffy so much, the show is brilliant beyond words, I know I've already said that, but it really deserves numerous shout outs. I might start reading the comics, but then I'd become addicted to them, and I don't know if i have the time for that right now, well I know I don't.

The picture makes me laugh because it brings back some serious memories. It's super old school in only the best way possible.

Toasted Skin

I've been switching between watching Buffy and Greek, it's all very exciting.

I've decided that I like Evan and Cappie equally. Evan is a much deeper character than I originally thought, I liked the fact that he had a beard/goatee combo and wanted to join Kappa Tau. But, I like that he is a responsible, put together adult.

Then, there's Cappie. I like that he's simple. I like that he doesn't take things for granted and has a severe case of the funnies.

I think if we combined Evan and Cappie, as characters, they would be the perfect guy.

I've probably thought about this way too much. I mean, it's not really a complicated show, so the character's aren't really as complicated as I made them. But, I don't know, I like to be analytical, it gives watching TV a point.

Amanda the Vampire Slayer

Duh dun dun dun, dun dun dun- DUH....

Well, that was me humming the Buffy theme song, kind of.

I started watching Buffy a few days ago and I forgot how much I love it- it's freaking AMAZING!! I was just going to watch a couple episodes, but I decided I'm just going to watch all 7 seasons.

I've been reading the books and wearing my necklaces (Mr.Pointy- uh-huh!)

It's all very exciting.

Purled is my new favorite word (definition= sound rippling water makes) I can't believe there's a word for that, well now I can. Isn't that awesome!?

Oh, and just to put this out there- Sophie Bell is the cutest baby EVER! Yup.

Amanda's:

Name drop of the day: Alyson Hannigan

Song of the Day: Buffy Cast- I've Got A Theory.

We believe in Barack Obama...

...well, I do anyway.

I'm not going to go into detail, but basically, over weeks of my extensive research on both McCain and Obama, I have found that Obama is a freaking GOD compared to McCain.

Stoop nagle doesn't know what she's talking about. She just knows that Obama wants to help EVERYONE and not just rich hussies, so she's automatically against him...pardon my french, but what a BITCH.

I am proud of my beliefs and i swear to holy heaven if Obama doesn't win presidency I'm going to be crying for weeks and weeks. Maybe for the rest of my life.

I mean, how can you go wrong with someone that cares about the things that actually matters- the environment, early childhood learning, tax cuts for the RIGHT people...I could go on, but you don't really care, and I don't really need to explain my reasoning for being a good, noble, intelligent person that cares about politics for the right reasons.

With that, I'd just like to end with this bit...

Amanda's:

Name drop of the day: Barack Obama (Surprising, no?)

Song of the day: The Hush Sound- We Believe in Barack Obama

Kappa Tau

So, I've always been content with staying home and reading or...writing my blog. But, just today I began to have this burning urge to PARTY. I don't know why....

I know, I know...it's irrational and stupid, but I think it's because I've never really done it. I guess I'm just curious...

It's proabably also due to my excess of watching my new favorite show...Greek. Let me tell you, bad acting and all- the show is AWESOME! I love it.

I have to say- I think I might be marrying Cappie, the dude is wonderful, hilarious, and gah-horgeous!

Yeah, I guess I'm done...

Survivor starts in 8 minutes! Bachow!

Make Out Kids

I like to copy photos from Bill's blog...yeah.

I'm home from school already, awesome. except I'm hungry, have to pee, and have a lot of homework.

I should be doing homework, but instead I'm readng Bill's blog and writing this- smart, right?

Oh, Teenage Dirtbag looks freaking incredible, the Breakfast Club of our generation i CANNOT wait. It's going to be genius.

I did my Natal (Birth) Chart and it's crazy how accurate it is, truly whack.

Amanda's

Name drop of the day: ***** *********

Song of the day: Motion City Soundtrack- Hold Me Down

Here we go again...

Two blogs within 10 minutes of one another, what the hell am I thinking...?

I honestly don't know, tomorrow is a minimum day, which is always good and the day after tomorrow is Friday which means that the day after that is Saturday, and I have a four day weekend, which is wonderful.

I could get free tickets to Panic! At the Disco at the Staples Center for Friday October 10th, but I don't think anyone would want to go with me- lame. Though, I have to admit they are not my favorite. But, I would really enjoy seeing them because there are some of there songs that are just pure amazing. (i.e.: Northern Downpour) what a freaking amazing song.

Amanda's

Name drop of the day: Andrea Douglas

Song of the day: Motion City Soundtrack- Perfect Teeth

Come on 2000's WTF?!

What the eff?

The 2000's are really lame, in the sense that, we don't actually have a style.

Each generation before us from the 1800's on has had specific trends and styles. The 2000's are just an ugly jumble of everything.

I mean who chose to bring back leg warmers and plastic earrings? Let me tell you, it was certainly not be.

Argh.

Rant=done.

Bat Darts

Two in a row, Amanda, you're crazy. I know, I know.

Bat Darts=awesome.

What the hell are Bat Darts Amanda? You may be asking right now. Well, the answer is easy- who cares? Just the sound of them makes them awesome.

Okay, I'm done for now...

About A Girl

I've realized that...

In the few seconds when you wake up, that is when you are whole and true. Your mind is free of worries as you wake up to a bright sun and a new day. You are real when you first strain to open your eye lids, you are alive.

Humanity is such a strange thing. Everyone either tries so hard to fit in or tries so hard to be unique. There is normality in life, everything is forced.

Am I taking this too hard?

Ugh, 25 days until the greatest day of my life... I cannot wait, obviously.

Name drop of the day: Tony Marino

Song of the Day: Anthony Green- Dear Child

I decided to delete this post.

Where have you been?!

It is so frustrating when you try so hard to achieve something, and you continue to fail time and time again.

Spanish is not my best subject, but I have to take it to get into a University level school, which I want to....and I am just not at all good at it.

AP Language and Composition is an AMAZING class and I have already learned more from it than all of my other classes put together, but I haven't done that well on the last couple essays. So, I have learned what not to do in the future. So, although I have a poor grade in the class, I have already learned so much and so grateful to Ms. Douglas for all she has done to help me as a writer and as a person, in only this short amount of time. Even though I love the class and realize that I will do better in the future, it is still disappointing when you see yourself doing poorly in your favorite subject.

Fast Times at .... High

Sometimes I forget how much I respect William as not only an artist, but as a human being as well. He is the epitome of all things pure and good in life and I could only hope to find someone as wonderful as him.

Fast Times at Barrington High is like the story of my high school career thus far. It makes me teary eyed how much I relate to it, because it lets me know that I am really closer to them than I think.


These are the fast times...

Who the f*ck is Russel Brand?

So, I despise MTV, as it is the epitome of all things I hate.

But, I decided to watch the VMA's last night on impulse and boy was I glad I did.

Russel Brand is a comic genius, even though he does look like a hobo that was kicked numerous times.

His constant blows to the Jonas Brothers and his mockery of our horrendous president was more than hilarious.

...and Jordin Sparks calling Russel a slut! How awesome is that!?

Well, until the day after today, which is tomorrow,

~Me

Humanity is pity

What a horrible feeling, being sad. For the first time in months, I am sad and I cannot do anything about it, no matter how hard I try.

3OH!3, they're my favorite, and they're getting eaten up by the scene kids and every day people- not right. It's horribly depressing even though I should be happy for them, I'm really not.

Hopefully I'll get over it, I'll have to, I guess I just can't think about it- eh, what a tragedy.

I don't even knew what to do with myself. Sadness is not a good feeling, if you didn't know already.

Laundromat Who?!

Second blog today, I'm on a roll.

Tonight is, or was, LMR.

I should be there now, where I love to be- American Legion Hall, bingo board and all.
But, instead I am here- my bed, with only my own company, and, well, Coneheads- but, what a crap movie.

Argh, Sunday is tomorrow, which is the day before Monday and the day after Saturday- worst day of the week.

Amanda's
Name drop of the day:
Adam T. Siska

Song of the day:
Never Shout Never- Big City Dreams

This is just the beginning...

So, I've started this blog for no one but myself. Read it if you like, don't if you wish- it makes no difference.

My stomach is in knots- literally- ow. But, It's a funny thing, the very second I put The Academy Is... on, I felt like a new human, a better person.

William's voice is my antidote for everything, they as a band, the music they create makes me undeniably and irreversibly happy.

That small fact is currently the largest part of my life. I decided, while reading a most brilliant explanation of lyrics, that I can control my own happiness- the power of my own life is in my own hands. From then on, I DECIDED to be happy. Sadness, anger, and regret was useless and a waste of life. Now, I realize what true happiness and content is. I am happy in my own skin!

I will be forever grateful to Bill for that. He honestly changed my life into something I never would have even dreamt of. So, William, as if you'll ever read this, but- you will be forever be my guardian, my savior, and my life. You are an amazing human being and I don't think you truly realize it. You're music, since before Almost Here, has been my outlet and my source of everything uplifting. Thank you for being the one constant, positive influence in my life.

For now, 'Till Later,

~Santi